Amatara

That Gentle Night (4706 words) by Amatara
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Vir Cotto & Londo Mollari, G'Kar & Londo Mollari
Characters: Londo Mollari, Vir Cotto, G'Kar
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Fix-It, Angst, Hopeful Ending, Character Death Fix
Summary: When your death dream fails to come true, is life something to embrace or to fear? After Centauri Prime is freed from the Drakh influence, Londo finds himself with a choice he never expected having to make. A short post-canon AU fic, set about a decade after the events from "Fall of Centauri Prime".

Run Baby Run (7804 words) by Amatara
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Characters: Lyta Alexander, Michael Garibaldi, Lennier, Kosh, G'Kar
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Telepath War, Hopeful Ending, Canonical Character Death
Summary: Rumors of her death have been greatly exaggerated.
Author's Notes: About the "canonical character death" tag: rest assured that the death in question isn't Lyta's, her ending in this is a hopeful one. Many thanks to Mithen for the beta!

More gift ficlets I wrote for followers on tumblr:

One for the Road (1066 words) by Amatara
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Marcus Cole/Susan Ivanova
Characters: Susan Ivanova, Marcus Cole
Additional Tags: Missing Scene, Banter, Drinking & Talking, Season/Series 04
Summary: Carrying a bottle of vodka onto a White Star had been toeing the line, she knew. Susan and Marcus sharing a drink at the start of the campaign against Clark's forces.

Home Is Where the Heart Is (1178 words) by Amatara
Fandom: Star Trek, Star Trek: The Original Series
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: James T. Kirk/Spock, James T. Kirk & Leonard McCoy & Spock
Additional Tags: Friendship, Touching, Angst and Fluff and Smut, Established Relationship
Summary: Fifteen hundred and seventy-seven minutes left until Enterprise reached space dock. Until she'd be home.
A short character vignette set at the end of the first five-year mission.

My Graceless Heart (5763 words) by Amatara
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Category: Gen
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Characters: Londo Mollari, G'Kar, Vir Cotto, Timov, Delenn
Additional Tags: Angst, Friendship, Hurt/Comfort, Heart Attacks, Guilt, Destiny
Summary: Five conversations Londo had in the days before his heart attack, without seeing the warning signs.
Author's Notes: Set in the time frame starting from late season 4's Rising Star (following John and Delenn's wedding and Londo receiving the news they want him to be Emperor) and ending after Sheridan's inauguration as President in early season 5's No Compromises. Many thanks to my wonderful beta Kangeiko!

Wow, it's been ages since I posted here. But I did manage to be at least mildly productive while I was off playing on tumblr!

(1) Someone started a B5 meme on LJ where people can leave and fill prompts, both kinky and other. While there haven't been many fills yet, I did write two stories so far:

• Belonging (Babylon 5): Vir/Lennier, PG-13. Vir and Lennier meet again after the Telepath War.
• One (Babylon 5): Jeffrey Sinclair, NC-17. Jeffrey Sinclair getting used to his new body, including the sex bits.

(2) I recently signed up at the Pandora roleplaying community, to play Londo Mollari alongside Hobsonphile's Vir and Starforgedsteel's G'Kar. Given that one of the first fannish discoveries I made after watching B5 was the roleplay Selena, Hobsonphile and Iamsab did at theatrical_muse for these characters, this feels strangely like coming full circle. So far I'm enjoying it tremendously, and we're exploring such threads as Londo's Keeper forcing him to attack Vir, Londo telling Vir the truth about the Drakh, and G'Kar visiting Londo in a prison cell. Future threads may include Londo and Vir being forced to share a bed in a too-cramped apartment, and finding a way to get rid of Londo's Keeper. *rubs hands in glee*

(3) Work has been utterly crazy (in a not-so-great way for a while, though things have been looking up and I'm starting to enjoy myself again) so I've been in a bit of a slump writing-wise. Still, some story ideas I'd like to find time to explore:

• It's been almost a year since I wrote my big post-canon B5 fic Though I Walk Through the Valley, connecting the dots between Fall of Centauri Prime and War Without End, and I think I've finally taken enough distance from it that I might start to write the missing scenes I had in mind for it: Vir and Lennier on Centauri Prime, perhaps Londo's actual death scene, and... well, anything goes, so requests would be welcome too. 
• Continuing my foray into smut I started with the B5 (kink) meme, I really want to write some Londo/G'Kar/Timov. Preferably with D/s undertones where Timov ends up calling the shots, because Timov is my empress and I have a mighty need.

World Enough and Time (2150 words) by Amatara
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Vir Cotto & Londo Mollari
Characters: Londo Mollari, Vir Cotto
Additional Tags: Missing Scene, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Friendship
Summary: Putting on a show for Cartagia is all well and good, but sometimes even the best performers miss a beat. Missing scene for the season 4 episode Falling Towards Apotheosis, just after Cartagia reveals the contents of his 'Shadow cabinet' and his plans to turn Centauri Prime into an inauguration pyre.

Been going through some rough times lately (nothing that won't pass, though, don't worry) and writing hurt/comfort is still the best way to cheer myself up, so here you go. :)

My other contribution to babylon5_love was something different altogether: for once, I made something that wasn't fic or something fanarty/crafty, but took a chance on music instead! Not an original song, but I did set new, B5-themed lyrics to an existing song, and recorded my own version of it to a karaoke track (as I lack the needed skill on acoustic guitar, woe). I ended up making a Londo and G'Kar version of "Hey There Delilah" by Plain White T's. The title, unsurprisingly, is "Hey There, Mollari", and the song is basically G'Kar writing a letter to Emperor Londo while traveling with Lyta. (The sound quality isn't great, but I did my best with the tools I had.) Hope you enjoy!

Hey There, Mollari: listen or download on Soundcloud.

( Lyrics behind the cut )

So at one point during the past weeks I wrote this little snippet at the request of a tumblr friend, after which we got to discussing Londo’s issues with choking and asphyxiation and she pointed out that there should be Londo/G’Kar breathplay fic because omg yes, painful and screwed up and perfect. And I agreed wholeheartedly, and one thing led to another and… well, I wrote the thing! :) And I can honestly say it's both the hottest and one of the darkest things I ever wrote, and somehow I’m irrationally proud of it, so... I hope you’ll all enjoy it. *beams*

Undertow (4101 words) by Amatara
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Explicit
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: G’Kar/Londo Mollari
Characters: Londo Mollari, G’Kar
Additional Tags: Angst, Snark, Marsupial Sex, Tentacle Sex, Breathplay, Dreams, Death Fantasy, Asphyxiation, Revelations, Alcohol
Summary: After watching a performance in the Dark Star, G'Kar makes a request that sets Londo's teeth on edge. Set sometime between the season 5 episodes The Ragged Edge and Darkness Ascending.

Though I Walk Through the Valley (46544 words) by Amatara
Chapters: 15/15
Fandom: Babylon 5
Rating: Teen And Up Audiences
Warnings: Author Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
Relationships: Londo Mollari/Timov, Vir Cotto & Londo Mollari, G'Kar & Londo Mollari, Vir & Lennier
Characters: Londo Mollari, Vir Cotto, G'Kar, Timov, Lennier, Delenn, David Sheridan
Additional Tags: Post-Canon, Not A Fix-It, Canonical Character Death, Canon Compliant
Summary: What really happened during those sixteen long years in which Londo waited for the prophecies to come true? A multi-chapter story, indended to bridge the gap between Londo's ascension to the throne and Centauri Prime's eventual liberation from the Drakh.

So, this is it! I just posted the last chapter of the fic that consumed my life for the past four months, ever since I gave in to that crazy impulse to write the one B5 story I've always wanted to see written. Well, 'consumed my life' is probably still an understatement. If there's anything that I learned throughout this, it's that I'm probably not cut out to be a writer - that is to say, writing is my passion and my joy but it's also my addiction, and the way I've been living these past few months to get this thing written... let's just say it wasn't very healthy, not for me and not for the people living with me and who were so kind to put up with me throughout this. It's still an experience I wouldn't have missed for the world, though. And I think I can say that, of all the stories I have written and may yet write in the future, this is the one story I hope I can be remembered by. Because every emotion that's in there is real, in some way, and mine, and because I am so fond of the story in itself and so proud of it too. So (I'm getting emotional now, dammit) if there ever comes a time that I need to leave fandom, and I hope that time won't come for many years yet... this is the story that I hope people will associate with me. It's by no means perfect, partly because I didn't get a beta while writing it (which I still think was a good call, or I would never have finished it) and partly because of the deadlines I had to keep setting myself to just get through it... But I think it still manages to do what I wanted it to, and even plot-wise, the puzzle pieces fit together pretty well with only a few ragged edges, so... yeah. I think I can safely feel proud of this thing.

And I really hope this won't sound presumptuous, but thank you so much to everyone who cheered me on through any part of this, whether it was with a few words or a thousand, and whether you actually read the story or were just passing through. It made all the difference in the world, believe me. And to everyone who was waiting to read this until you were sure I'd actually be able to finish it (which I don't blame you for, for a while I wasn't all that sure I would either :) )... Here you go, I hope it was worth the wait!

Even though this isn't the last chapter yet, it almost feels like it is, because so much happens in this one. And that's only the abridged version - if I'd put everything in this chapter that I originally wanted to, I'm pretty sure I'd have been writing forever. That said, I hope I didn’t rush things too much; at one point, it felt like I was just racing from plot point to plot point trying to tie it all up without losing momentum, and I’m still not quite sure if I managed to avoid that trap. Also, because I was fretting so much about not turning this chapter into a huge melodrama, I might have overcompensated and made it too clinical instead. But chances are if I’d have gone for more drama, I would have ended up being just as worried that I took it too far, because that's me as well. :)

Anyway, after this chapter there’s one more, and then an epilogue, but I have good hopes (fingers crossed) that, now the toughest bit is done, it’s just gonna be riding the rollercoaster all the way down!

Title: Though I Walk Through the Valley (13/15)
Fandom: Babylon 5
Category/Rating: gen-ish (with some background pairings), PG-13
Story summary: What really happened during those sixteen long years in which Londo waited for the prophecies to come true? A multi-chapter story, intended to bridge the gap between Londo’s ascension to the throne and Centauri Prime’s eventual liberation from the Drakh.

(In which Vir is shocked; Timov has the last word; G’Kar makes a promise; and Londo prepares in the only way he can.)